Life Is Worth Living? by BARB!EK!LLER

Another oldie but goodie that I found. This one is from 2006. Doesn’t seem like that long ago but I was only 16… 16… That’s crazyyyyy!

Life Is Worth Living?

LIFE IS A MEANINGLESS OBJECT
WITHOUT LOVE THERE IS NO PAIN
WITHOUT PAIN THERE IS NO SADNESS
WITHOUT SADNESS THERE ARE NO TEARS
AND IT SEEMS THAT WITH EVERY HAPPY MOMENT THERE IS A SAD MOMENT TO FILL ITS PLACE
IF I COULD JUST TAKE ALL THOSE MOMENTS THAT CAUSED TEARS AND WATCH THEM BURN IN A NEVERENDING FLAME THEN MAYBE I COULD SEE WHY LIFE IS WORTH LIVING
BUT RIGHT NOW I AM BLINDED TO A REASON TO CONTINUE BREATHING OR HOLD BACK THE RAZOR THAT WANTS A BITE AT THE VEIN
AM I FOREVER TO LIVE IN PAIN, SADNESS, AND TEARS?
IF SO, MAYBE I WILL TURN MY BACK AND FADE INTO THE DARKNESS, LOSE EXISTENCE IN LIFE

BARB!EK!LLER

Eternal Numbness by BARB!EK!LLER

Back in the day I used to write… a lot. I decided to go back through my myspace today and check out some really old poems I put up. This one is from 2007. Don’t judge me. I don’t declare myself a writer at all so it’s not that great but it’s one of my own creations so I love it anyways.

Eternal Numbness

I hang my heart out there on a limb
I dived right into that great red sea
I struggled and tried to swim
I knew you just weren’t for me

It was just another stupid instance
That I ripped myself open for all
I decided to take one last chance
You were blind, something I finally saw

I still wish for eternal numbness
Wish I could touch and didn’t feel a thing
Maybe that is where lies happiness
To be able to love and not feel the sting

BARB!EK!LLER

A Million Pieces by Rendy Ortiz

I went threw a bad breakup and a good friend of mine wrote  this poem and read it to me the other night. I could relate to it so much I just wanted to let others have a chance to read it and hopefully allow others to be able to relate.

MARKY DAVELL

You left me here, you just disappeared
No explanation, but to wonder with my imagination
Feeling so alone feeling so afraid, but yet so familiar I have to say
You said you loved me you say you needed me, and you never even cared
Shared a touch shared a kiss, but your heart you never shared
I have to but that there, and but this here
And maybe this goes over there
I have to arrange my life, and start over
As a drunk forced to go sober
I’m confused, simply messed up in the head
Like celebrating christmas in october
Or nights of pleasure, but now alone in bed
My life has completely fallen apart
Since from me you decided to part
Like paint washing away on a portrait of art
Finally found this pieces’ right spot
Cause putting this puzzle together is this poem’s plot
And this goes here, and that goes there
It’s all making sense now cause the truth I begin to bare
The truth being your not here, and you wont ever be
A truth that shattered my world, broke it here and there
Gotten many pieces together, but then I look
And I notice that a million pieces of this puzzle you took

Rendy Ortiz